I can’t really let this out anywhere else so tumblr, brace yourself.
I am feeling so lost at the moment. Since I was 12/13 years old I was so sure childcare was for me and when I started in the place I am I was a volunteer and I worked my way up and 4 years later i’m in a really good position. Except it doesn’t satisfy me any more, I dread going and hate waking up in the morning take another pile of shit. And all of a sudden i’m forced with the idea that maybe child care isn’t for me. That feeling, the feeling of having something ripped out from underneath you that you were so sure of. Safe and stable and grounded and then within a minute it’s tipped on it’s head and I don’t have a fucking clue what i’m doing anymore. It’s so disorientating.
And then there’s you, perfect you. I’m so blinded that I can’t see a single flaw or imperfection any more. Even the things that annoy me and things I don’t usually find attractive are so appealing to me because of you. And I know you don’t feel how I do and I waited too long but fuck, you mess me up inside! My heart loses it’s shit and my brain can barely tell me to look and smile and my whole body just does what it wants. And why. Because when you’re next to me I feel safe. When you look at me, you actually see me and you let me in. When your hand, or your arm, or your body is touching mine I forget how to do anything and all I can think about is the part of ME that you’re touching and trying to remember that. You’re all I think about. The way your hair spirals on the crown of your head and the bumps of your skull when your hair is shaved. The scar above your knuckles. The green/hazel mix of your eyes and how i’m so fucking deeply lost in them. And. And. Fuck!
Think i’m beyond help now!
CAN I GET A HELL YEAH IF YOU DON’T KNOW WHAT YOU’RE DOING WITH YOUR LIFE AND YOU DON’T GET ENOUGH SLEEP
I never really liked
until I found out
what it tastes like
when you sigh it
If anyone is having a bad day, just spend 15 minutes and enjoy this guy’s wisdom after losing his wisdom teeth.
I guarantee you’ll be smiling by the end of it.
he is a good friend
This video!!!! Oh my days!!
I swear this sums up depression for me